But me? I am having a terrible time. I am tired physically and mentally. Yesterday, I had a meltdown to top all meltdowns. Actually, if I do not hold on tight to my emotions, I think I would be totally melted and flow into a drain.
Last week, out back, I mowed the grass that was about ten inches tall. I had not been able to mow due to running back and forth to the hospital. I hit a tree stump. The new blade is history already. Tomorrow, I buy a new blade. It is the third since John got sick. The grass grows so high that I cannot see stumps and rocks. Ker thump, I have ruined another new blade. That makes three since John got sick.
Monday evening, our wonderful friends, Deb and Bob Cline from Maple Row Stock and Wool pulled into our driveway. They were returning from the Maryland Sheep and Wool Festival and came to help us out for another day. Bob and his trusty chain saw cut down all the dead trees, branches and tree stumps. He leveled our crushed stone drive enough to look beautiful and accomplished odds and ends that would have taken me months to accomplish alone.
Monday, John went to physical therapy. He did such a great job. We had lunch then returned home. Tuesday and Wednesday, since Bob and Deb were here, he tried to participate and totally overdid.
Physical therapy was scheduled for Wednesday and today (Thursday). He cancelled both sessions.
Yesterday, he did go to his Doctor. He asked our doctor, what to expect in recovery since Kindred Hospital gave him no directions regarding activities after dismissal.
John, our doctor, said to just do what he feels like doing and then he will learn by his feelings the next day what he should be doing or not doing. It would be so nice to have a map or time table....If you do this, then you will be able to do that. Nope, not that easy.
Today, John rested. I also rested. We were up at 7:15 this morning. I told John that I wanted to lie down for a while at 8:30 and slept till 12:30. Now that is a very long nap.
We do not know what is normal for this situation. There are so many things we want to do, but have no energy. I think that if we meet any of you, it will be as you pass through and the meeting will be in our driveway.
What a whiny blog.....
God bless each and every one of you.