First and foremost, I want to thank each and every one of you for your prayers and kind wishes. The prayers of our friends, neighbors on our country road, our family and on John's behalf and for my strength have aided in John's beings able to allow the ventilator breathe for him. Therefore allowing the healing of John's lungs and body begin.
It is a shame that we, mainly I did not see how tired and stressed John's body was. I have been so intent on beginning our new journey that I was blinded and in total denial. Please don't tell me not to feel badly. I know that I cannot change things and I am not beating myself over the head for this. It is a lesson learned.
God allows us to make mistakes and it is up to us to learn and make a choice. Will I learn from the mistakes in my life? Or will I continue to repeat those mistakes? Well, I now REALLY know the warning signs of John's fatigue and stress level and I will not continue with the pressure.
John's condition was exacerbated by his Spring allergies, dust created in the house, etc., etc. Over those things, we have no control. I'll just take care of my part of the work and let God do his part.
John chose to smoke two packs of Marlboro every day from college days till he was about fifty years old. He is now paying the price for that choice. So am I.
I ask for you prayers that John will continue to rest and heal. We definitely are not out of the woods yet. Maybe, just maybe they will try to take him off the ventilator tomorrow. If he can breathe on his own and maintain his oxygen levels and get that nasty carbon dioxide out of his lungs, we will be off our detour and back on the road of our journey.
I have a family member coming to finish the three or four things that John needed to finish. I still have Cruz our waiter from our favorite Mexican restaurant coming to spread the ten yards or whatever it's called. Our lawn tractor will be returned from the repair shop tomorrow or Tuesday and I will be able to mow a little each day before going to the hospital.
I will sign the listing contract tomorrow and the photographer will be here the end of the week to photograph the interior and exterior of the house and barns and the grounds. This paves the way for having the house on the market April 1.
I am fully aware that many times, God has a far better idea. It is often said that if you want to make God laugh, just tell Him how you have planned your life. Let's see what happens from now until April first. It would have to be April Fool's Day, doesn't it!
My prayer is that at least one of you reading this will find something in your life that you are doing, that just maybe, you need to change in order not to have to "pay the piper" as we did. For every action, there is a reaction. If you smoke, please consider seeking help to stop. If you will not do it for yourself, do it for your loved ones.
I'm smiling, I hope you are too. God bless!