Yesterday was a hard day for me. I know, this illness is not about me, but I sure lost focus. I had not been listening to the encouragement to take care of myself, get some rest, etc., etc. It came to bite me in the tush......hard....ouch!
The meltdown started prior to leaving for the hospital. I didn't want to go! I procrastinated until I felt so guilty, sooo.....I drove and cried all the way. The tears did not stop when I arrived in John's room....He was still sedated and did not respond to me. The nurse said his responses to them were appropriate and I should not be concerned. I was concerned....who trusts medical professionals anyway ( a wee joke there). More meltdown. geesh....
I decided to drive over to our daughter's home and talk to her. She is a physician and I hoped that she could give me a doctor/daughter perspective. And she did.
I cannot count the number of times I have heard, Holly, nurses, respiratory therapists, his physician, all say that this is going to be a loooooong recovery. There is that Inchworm again! But last night, talking to Holly I finally let go and let God be the Physician in charge.
Sometimes I feel like a little child who takes a broken toy to her dad to be fixed and keeps telling him how to repair it and how fast to do it.
Enough of me.
As I arrived in John's room, he was sitting in the Cardiac Chair! He was doing great! He responded to my questions with a nod or a shake of the head. He even tried to talk. I would call that two bites of the elephant. Whew.... two down and a zillion to go.
Now he is taking a nap, or should be at least. Right now his eyes are open and looking around as he listens to some music. Betty, a blogger friend emailed the song In Christ Alone to us. It just finished and I asked John if he liked it. He nodded and it is playing for the second time. Hey Betty, Thanks so much for this.
We are awaiting Dr. Duncan. I am eager to hear today's assessment.
That Inchworm and Elephant are waiting too!
In the meantime, Be safe out there on the road and your activities and God Bless!